Hey Dad, how is it 22 years yesterday since you left us...the years pass so quickly, but the loss, guilt, sadness and aching heart don't pass at all, you just finally have to accept that the person you miss and love so much isn't coming back...I often just get a random thought or image in my head, from my younger years, when you were here...It could be anything, something you did or said, or something we all did or something just you and I did..Sometimes, it makes me smile and I want to giggle; but it's normally at a real inappropriate time...
This weekend is the same as the weekend we lost you...you left on the Saturday and the Sunday was Father's day i guess it's inevitable it'll happen again at some point over the years...It just takes me back to that fateful day and I still wonder about so many things like, what you must have been thinking, how was your mindset? did you even think of anyone else? How long were you there for before you were found...but are the answers really important? I just need to remember you, yes I have bad memories and they go deep, but I wait for the good ones and smile up above and send you so very much love...Happy Fathers Day Dad, I love you and miss you so very very much xxxx